A good man is like fine wine. They all start out like grapes. Our job is to stomp on them and keep them in the dark until they mature into something we wouldn’t mind having dinner with.
Maxine Shaw (Erika Alexander) on Living Single

I am having a really bad day. Got pissed off about some first-world problem: malfunctioned keyboard, which I tried to fix twice, causing the delay of my work. Who am I kidding? I am so pissed off with myself. So irresponsible. Wasn’t responsible enough to get a new keyboard, wasn’t responsible enough to start my work days ago, wasn’t responsible enough to get myself a copy of my class lectures (now I got nothing to study for tomorrow’s exam). My head’s in mess. F**K!

Miscarriage - MisLife

Losing a loved one is painful. Losing the chance to have a loved one is also painful.

Miscarriage comes in the most unexpected times and could definitely leave you in shock. It does not just cause danger to the mother’s health, but it also cause an agonizing wound in her heart; spending nights crying because of the pain and stress she is going through. The burden is not only on her, but also on the whole family.

Miscarriage is defined as the spontaneous end of pregnancy at a stage where the embryo or the fetus is incapable in surviving independently. 

There is no one to be blamed, even the mother, for it was said that miscarriage happens for many reasons and not all are identified.

For a moment I thought, a new sibling would be great, but it is not gonna happen any sooner. I just told myself, it was God’s will that this happened.

We lost a life even before we had it.

I got really upset but didn’t show it. When sad moments come and I know my mom is sad already, I will show that I am strong for her. I am worried for my mother, knowing that she is thousand miles away from us and alone. Our words and prayers are the only things that comforts her.

With the Lord, I know we can surpass this unfortunate event. If He brought us to it, He will bring us through it.

Love for the Summer

Summer time started weeks ago but I know this post is not too late.

Summer is the most exciting part of the year (or maybe the best part of the year). There’s always something new to look forward to. It is the time when I meet new friends, experience new things, eat new foods, go to new places.  

I get all fired up during this time, not just because of the heat (I hate cold season), but because I feel so alive and I feel like there’s so much happenings to come. I would always feel that tingling sensation every morning because I know something good is up.

Summer must have loved me the way I love it. I had always remember the summers during my younger years when I hang out with my friends till late night just jamming with our guitars, playing cards (no gambling of course), laughing, talking, sometimes fighting and a lot more. During the past summers I join our church’s youth activities making my summers more productive. Unfortunately I can’t do that anymore due to some reasons.  

This year, I am so excited even though I am not sure what am I excited for. Maybe it is because of summer classes, the beach next month, my brother’s birthday, my cousins’ vacation at our place, or maybe there’s gonna happen that I am not yet aware of right now.

I don’t care what it is that makes me feel so excited about this year’s summer. All I know is I am going to make it a good one.

Cheers!

The start of my journey

Ever since I can remember, I have a stout body; easy to gain but hard to lose weight. I had always been overweight.

My late high school years were my “most active” ones. I started playing volleyball. I also started started to lose weight. From 66 kilograms to 56 in less than a year.Not much but it made me feel good about my self and had more confidence.

I maintained my weight around 54 kilograms during college but recently, I am weighing 61 kilograms. This is the result of my eating spree anytime of the day (almost everyday) and the lack of my regular workout.

I can barely wear my school uniform. Most of my jeans are left at the bottom of my closet. I don’t want to go back to were I was before. I am not happy with myself anymore. So I am starting to get back on track.

With the help of the easy-to-follow workouts of Fitness Blender and the encouraging and helpful members of My Fitness Pal (my food and exercise diary), I am sure to achieve my goals before the year ends.

I read from one site that to lose weight, it’s 80% good diet and 20% regular exercise.

Eating healthy foods is definitely my number one strategy. I want to try different foods like quinoa. I am also starting to take some supplements to help me lose weight. 

Buying a new weighing scale would also be a big help to keep an eye on my weight. My old one has got to go.